There are many moments I enjoy as a mother (as there are some I don't) but nothing is better than having the opportunity to hold your baby uninterrupted and as long as he will let you. I was able to soak up all of the love and snuggles that my little guy had to offer after he got up from his nap on Saturday. I'm not too sure why I was privileged with these snuggles but I certainly won't give them up!
As I was sitting there rocking in the chair that I had once held this little 8 pound helpless being, I couldn't help but be overwhelmed with the feeling of loss. I realized I am loosing my little baby and gaining a little boy. As much as I feel I am complete with the family that I have, I am also saddened by the thought of never having another baby to hold and cuddle. Where will my little toes have gone? Will they have grown into the adult feet that I so despise? Will the sweet smell of innocence be replaced with the smell of a dirty little child fresh from some sort of sporting practice? And what about the cuddles?
I am sure I can give up all of the other wonders that come with babies but all I can hope for is that I will never have to relinquish the right to mommy love and snuggles.
All of this makes me think of the book "Love You Forever". I had read this book before I had children and I have even read it to my kids in recent times but for some reason, something clicked and I realized how true it is, "I love you forever, I'll like you for always. As long as I'm living, my baby you'll be."
I know that I will have to let go of my kids and let them grow up, but in my heart I know they will always be the little helpless beings that I will be able to smother with my love and affection any time they need it.